we all know i am awful at keeping up with a journal. this isn't high school anymore, after all. (thank god.)

i am back at UK, back in lexington. school is starting, i am as apathetic as usual, already behind on my readings and ahead in my planning. i'm taking a group counseling class, personality assessment, and practicum. my practicum site is the adult education center in downtown louisville, which means lots of driving back and forth that i am already sick of. i'm theoretically volunteering with the bluegrass rape crisis center and getting three hours of independent study credit for that, but i need to have an interview with them and then undergo forty hours of training first. it will be good experience, i think, if i can keep it from being trigger-y.

i finally processed a little about aastik's passing (his death, i still can't quite bring myself to say; when i talk about him at all, i usually just say i finally managed to process a little about aastik, and it is so awful to reduce everything about him down to that), and i think i'll post about it at some stage, just to articulate what i'm thinking. to further encourage the process and all that.

i really need to get my shit together, but i need to go to the library and of course since today's a HOLIDAY, the library is closed, and all the books i need to read are on reserve there. not sure if the coffee shop is closed or not. -- jk, they are. bugger.

i've been terribly out of touch with everyone. sorry :( i'm an awful friend.

i am planning a halloween party, where i will hopefully see everyone and make it up to you all. more information on that to come.

so tired of drama. and people not being open about what they feel and what they need. if you need something different than what i'm doing, just fucking say it, don't wait around angry hoping i'll figure it out, because i'm dumb and i won't.

/endrant

i got to sleep nine whole hours last night, and it was glorious. i turned in two papers yesterday and then wasn't feeling good, so i took the day off from school and everything. i cleaned up my apartment a little, but not really. i spent most of the day lounging and reading fanfiction. i will probably regret this later, but right now, i can't bring myself to.

gotta shower soon, and maybe pack some more (i move on friday). client @ 1 today. then back into the swing of things: work on my presentation for 661 next monday, read for my 661 paper, sort stuff for goodwill (the amount of shoes i own is obscene), fold laundry and put it away, and keep packing.

i should post my to do list -- that used to be pretty effective. that will be the fourth place i have it down, haha. it's the only way i can remember anything anymore. my brain just isn't cutting it on its own lately.